Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Disengaging from Attachments That Hold Us Back

HI There! I have been away longer than I realized. Now I know what selling a home, moving out of state, buying and moving into a new home does to me. I go temporarily out of commission when it comes to writing. Though I have been remiss in writing, the move has provided me with another opportunity to practice the art of non-attachment. Over the past couple of months I learned lot about letting go of my vice-grip on being comfortable as I opened to greater opportunities for me and my husband to fullill our purposes.

My husband and I lived in the beautiful red rocks of Sedona, Arizona. This is the kind of mystical, magical, beautiful place that takes your breath away when you meet those red rocks for the first time. We loved the sun-hat kind of weather that came with living in the desert. We have hundreds of friends and met people we knew whenever we went shopping or out for a meal. We were surrounded by great hiking trails, exceptional art galleries, and amazing views every direction you turned. And we actually left this wonderful home and playground.

We left because we knew it was time to go. Oh, we gave a lot of rational explanations like, "We needed some mountain air" and "We are able to buy twice as much house in Colorado." The truth is we just knew in our guts for some unknown reason that we needed to make a move. Trusting our intuition, we visited Boulder and Colorado Springs, and found the home we fell in love with in Colorado Springs.

We traded views of red rocks for views of the deer in our wooded back yard. We traded 300 sunny, warm days a year for a yummy hot tub overlooking snow laden trees. And we traded quaint tourist shops for big retail chains. We miss the charm and spectacular beauty of Sedona while simultaneously faling in love with the enchanting forests and big city privleges of Colorado Springs.

Though we knew would be happy in Colorado, the closer we got to the move date, the more we asked ourselves, "Why are we doing this?" The week were packing up the house, the temperatures were in the 70's in Sedona and the 40's in Colorado Springs. Our friends were telling us how much they were going to miss us at the same time we were feeling the lonliness of going to a new place. It is probably a good thing that it would have been very expensive to change our minds at that point, or we might have opted to remain where we were comfortable.

Even through our doubts we couldn't ignore the realization that the minute we made a commmitment to buy a house here, doors of opportunity flew open for Jeffrey and me. My husband sold five pieces of his original art in the two weeks before our move. He had three offers to help him advance his art career during our last week in Sedona, and another enticing offer three weeks after we arrived here.

As soon as we got to Colorado, my health challenges started to alleviate. I watch my physical health improve every day. I am calmer and more at peace than I have been for years. In just the few weeks we have been here, I have gained tremendous clarity about the timing and type of service I am here to provide - all in keeping with the further expression of my soul purpose.

Letting go of the life we had become so comfortable with and opening, with great trust, to a whole new life seemed to have created a doorway through which more of our desires and prayers could be answered. Hanging on or attaching to what we knew would have been easy. Letting go of what was famililar, trusting our instincts, and making the move was challenging on many levels. But it was so worth it!

Babba Sri Siva once said the greatest way to change your karma is to change your venue. Wow, did we ever discover the truth in that insight. Several blocks to our progress vanished simply by moving to the place we knew we needed to be.

After this move, it seems apparent to me that opportunity can only enter in, when you actually open the door and create some space for it to enter. You may not know in advance what the opportunity knocking at your door is really going to look like, but as long as you remain sitting in your easy chair, you will never know who or what is waiting to come in.